It’s Thanksgiving and I woke this morning thinking about my Grandma. Sometimes it’s hard to find the spirit of the holidays when you have lost your center—the center of your family—your mother, your grandmother, your heart.
Growing up, holidays were about going to Grandma’s house. They were the best days of the year. Your little heart was so filled with such gladness as you dressed in your new clothes, anxious to get to Grandma’s.
Is there anything better than walking into a small house filled with people who love you? Oh, the smells…turkey, ham, and pie (with cool-whip.) My Gram would make lemon and orange meringue pie with really high peaks. The adults would sit around the big table and munch on mixed nuts and chocolates, while us kids would sit on the stairs and talk about who knows what.
My Gram has been gone 20 years now and I lost my Mammaw this past spring. It’s hard not to think of them today, but I am so lucky to have my Mother and Father with me. They have always been my center and I am truly blessed.
I felt a little foolish posting last night that I cried because Steve Jobs had died. Actually, I cried when I read what he had written about living life, about letting go of the past, envisioning the future and to not be afraid if you couldn’t see it clearly. I knew he was a visionary, introducing the masses to things we never knew we even needed. How much happier are we when we can take a break, put in our earbuds and listen to our favorite tunes? We can go to iTunes and for a dollar, download Def Leppard’s “Pour Some Sugar on Me,” and be instantly transported back to Junior Prom in 1988. To watch my Dad’s face when I played “House of the Rising Sun” for him; seeing his expression change as the memories swirled–he was remembering when this song came out. He said, “1964. I was 18 years old and I remember listening to this when I worked at the gas station.” Then he surprised me by singing along. He knew the words. He was amazed that with a few clicks, I could get any song. Now. Steve Jobs made that happen. 
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